Tired.. so tired!
I ate 3 sleeping pills this afternoon, but it didn't work, so now I'm awake with nothing to do and that would mean letting my mind think about issues which will surely bug me more and upset me further. I just want to take time off from things and just not think about anything.. *sighs* I just wanna go wandering awaaayy..

--»°©°«-{~WíThõüT â ThõüGhT, WíThõüT â VõíCè, WíThõüT â §õü£~}-»°©°«--

New Beginnings...
It's Friday Morning and I should be feeling all excited and happy coz the weekends are coming.. but I'm not feeling all that.

It's probably due to the fact that I have to go to my new workplace tomorrow... a new beginning for me, in a totally new environment with new colleagues.

I'm gearing myself up for the challenge at work, though I still do not know what to expect, and I'm trying to feel more enthusiastic about the new work experience despite the dull, and non-encouraging new environment, but like they say, try and look on the bright side of things.. I'm sure it won't be so bad after all.

On the personal front, nothing's changed much, still deciding on my next course of action, which I know nuts of, not even the slightest idea... *winkz*

I guess, what I will do though is to sit back, catch my breath, and just observe. At times, you just have to do that. Take a breather, and just observe what's really happening. As they say, an observer can see things clearer.. provided they remain objective. *grinz* The flipside of things.. everything!~

--»°©°«-{~WíThõüT â ThõüGhT, WíThõüT â VõíCè, WíThõüT â §õü£~}-»°©°«--

It's been a while...
It's been a while since I've reflected on what's been happening to me.. I'm really amazed as to the works of life.

The past 7 months since my last entry had truly been testing times of my life.. I feel that I have changed, my perspectives, my opinions, my attitude.. everything.. whatever has happened to me gave a new meaning to the phrase 'People change as time goes by.'

Work and school:
I've gone through another round of work attachment, and I'm really sure now that I do enjoy my work. Soon, I'm gonna start my full-fledged worklife, and I have no complaints about it, although it will be in a totally new environment for me.

I have come to cherish my colleagues, their ideas and opinions. They have given me their share of moral support and encouragement. Being friends with them have given me a more objective perspective towards some of my problems that I have shared with them, and I really appreciate and thank them for that.

Personal life:
My mind's a mess right now, having a headache... I don't really know the right thing to do right now. All I know is that, people can really turn out the opposite of what you expect of them. Sometimes, when you think that you know someone well, circumstances will show you that you don't and can't really know a person well enough. I've learnt that you can know a person up to how much the person would want you to know about him/her.

There's so much that I've been keeping inside of me, so much so that I just feel like letting it all out.. but due to promises made, and the trust given to me, I just couldn't pour my heart out to anyone. No one really knows what's in my mind, what I'm going through. At times, I, myself, do not know what is happening and what my next course of action will be.

I must admit, there are times when I give in to my own selfish emotions and feelings and did actions which I know are wrong, but I just can't help doing it. At the end of day, I'm torn apart, coz I'll be feeling guilty, but yet, when I give in to my emotions, I feel happy.

I'm not proud to be the person that I am today. I want to make things better, but I do not know how. It's all so complicated as it involves so many people that I care about and love. Maybe it's time to take time off and sort myself out first. *ponders*

I pray to God to give me the strength and to show me the right path. It's best for me to get burnt than to hurt my loved ones.. *sighs*


--»°©°«-{~WíThõüT â ThõüGhT, WíThõüT â VõíCè, WíThõüT â §õü£~}-»°©°«--