Expectations...
Expectations.... people are so full of expectations. They expect things to happen in life.. they have expectations of people around them. I'm so tired of expectations....
I've lived my life living up to people's expectations of me... that's what I thought.. but I guess no matter what I do, I still fall short of those expectations. But what choice do I have? I have my own limitations.. nobody's perfect, right? *sighz*
Sometimes, I just wish that I'll just disappear into the loneliness of night, hoping noone would notice my existence. For once, I just want to live life without anyone's expectations resting upon my shoulders. I've lived with having to fulfil other people's wishes, having them in my mind and thoughts, caring for their comfort and what they would think and feel. I just wish that they, in return, would do me a favour and just let me be myself at times, just let me think of myself, just think of me for once....
It's not about being self-centred, but I just need my own space... I just need to live my own life, find my own happiness, be respected and accepted as who I am. Is that so much to ask for?
'In the depths of the night,
I bury myself in slumber,
crying myself to sleep,
as my heart hurts so achingly.
Then there was this shining light,
and as I opened my eyes,
I knew then, that no matter what,
the stars still shine brightly.'
I'm keeping my faith and still hope for the best.. Reminding myself that everything happen for a reason. No matter how dark life seems to be, it still has to go on. To let it stay dark, or to shine some light into it, it's a choice I have.... I just wish, though, I could be understood for once.... *sigh*
---Endless Story---